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Deep in the Fade

by Blue J

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1.
All your dreams Where have they been? Well I’ve been putting mine off for a while Life has such a funny way Of making all your glory days Feel like they’ll always be around But if all my dreams came true I’m not sure I’d know what to do All your dreams Keep you alive on the inside you know it’s okay If all your dreams Don’t go as planned Maybe they’re just lights that lead the way All your dreams In kerosene But you don’t need to set them on fire You know that I’m just like a dog Happy to be chasing cars To feel my face against the morning sun But if I got my rope around the moon I’m not sure I’d know what to do All your dreams Keep you alive on the inside you know it’s okay If all your dreams Don’t go as planned Maybe they’re just lights that lead the way All your dreams Keep you alive on the inside you know it’s okay If all your dreams Don’t go as planned Maybe they’re just lights that lead the way To another day
2.
40th Floor 03:28
Going up to the 40th floor The concierge says hello at the door The first time I came by it wigged me out I’ve never been somewhere I felt so caught out I’ve never been known as scene stealer I bet your neighbours think I’m your weed dealer I’ve never seen such a beautiful view I’ve never met somebody quite like you Well do you wanna talk about it? Do you wanna stop and give it back? You only wanna be without it You’re always gonna see me as a drag Now do you wanna talk about it? If you want some from me just ask Can we get on a call about it? Hang up but you keep calling me back Take the elevator down with my houseplants The concierge lets me out with a side glance Walk past the cafes with my backpack Drive away in a car I have to give back I’ve never been known for my scene stealing Girl from the north country free wheeling I’ve never left such a beautiful view I’ve never loved somebody quite like you Well, do you wanna talk about it? Do you wanna stop and give it back? You only wanna be without it You’re always gonna see me as a drag Now do you wanna talk about it? If you want some from me just ask Can we get on a call about it? Hang up but you keep calling me back Hang up but you keep calling me back You keep calling me back Do you wanna talk about it? I just wanna talk about it
3.
Sink or Swim 03:51
You came to me in the night With surrender in your eyes On the front porch in the cold Standing barefoot in a robe Telling me no one can know How the Oxy's taken hold Kept a secret hard to bare You knew I’d keep it because I care And I tried to fix you up but it’s never enough To stick Then I tried to lighten up using all of my useless tricks I thought that I had control That I could help you work it out But I’m sadly mistaken, mistaken And everything that I put in Didn’t make you want to live again And I’m tired of breakin’, breakin’ Have to let you sink or swim Have to let you sink or swim All the years kept rolling by Had to let you die and die Have you ever grieved someone Who’s still alive and having fun? Now every ounce of weight That you put on I hope it takes You are worthy of your love You are worthy of your space And I tried to fix you up but it’s never enough To stick Then I tried to lighten up using all of my useless tricks I thought that I had control That I could help you work it out But I’m sadly mistaken, mistaken And everything that I put in Didn’t make you want to live again And I’m tired of breakin’, breakin’ Have to let you sink or swim Have to let you sink or swim Have to let you sink or swim
4.
I’ve been told I should wait You’ve gotta give it time about a couple of days You’ve gotta be patient Don’t give off desperation But it’s not like that at all Will it turn you off if I’m just eager to call I’m so tired of pretending Do you get the message I’m sending? Maybe I should come to my senses I’m gonna say it now I know it’s not recommended But I don’t wanna make you wait I just wanna see your face If you’re still up when I’m off I’ll come out in my car And we can drive til’ we're too tired to talk Oh I know it takes time I like how this feels did you just steal my line Scroll up and see it I’m just happy you mean it Now what’s it like to live here? This neigbourhoods changed so much in a year Where’s that cafe we met at? Can we start over again now? Maybe I should come to my senses I’m gonna say it now I know it’s not recommended I don’t wanna make you wait I just wanna see your face If you’re still up when I’m off I’ll come out in my car And we can drive til’ we're too tired to talk One night gone to a marathon Talk about a time and place One night on in an exchange of songs Every small reaction gauged
5.
Read My Bio 03:44
Why am I afraid to tell you Who I am? Some vague combination Of traits good and bad What am I really afraid That you’ll find out? Nothing really offered here That you can’t live without In the morning In the gloaming In the evening In your bed Take my thoughts from me running Take the chaos from my head All replaced with empty space Read my bio to me Do I read as real here? I don’t mean to misrepresent myself But I’m a little weird Why am I afraid to be in charge? Panic in the moment with death still looming large What do I really want from all of this? Someone that accepts me Something that exists In the morning In the gloaming In the evening In your bed Take my thoughts from me running Take the chaos from my head All replaced with empty space Read my bio to me Do I read as real here? I don’t mean to misrepresent myself But I’m a little weird Read my text back to me Is that really how I sound? I don’t mean to misrepresent myself I wanna stick around
6.
Time it rolls on Close your eyes until it’s gone Sitting in the cafes Reading on a rainy day Walk out in the streets Where nobody looks at me There’s a big wheel not turning Where the river isn’t churning There's a worm inside my head Repeating everything I said Fingers driven through the streams Moments passing in between I just wanna Dance with somebody It’s you I want a body to talk to And I just wanna do away With my body For you Here’s a body that loves you Shrugged against the tide Struggled with the urge to die No such thing as too much coffee Need to get those irons off me I’m a worm you cut in half While I’m watching my head laugh My body wants the earth Once it’s exchanged for all it’s worth I just wanna Dance with somebody It’s you I want a body to talk to And I just wanna do away With my body For you Here’s a body that loves you And I just wanna Dance with somebody It’s you I want a body to talk to And I just wanna do away With my body For you Here’s a body that loves you Now reach out your hands ‘Cause you're wonderful
7.
Falling 04:26
I'm in my bed And you're not here And there's no one to blame But the drink in my wandering hands Forget what I said It's not what I meant And I can't take it back I can't unpack the baggage you left What am I now? What am I now? What if I'm someone I don't want around? I'm falling again, I'm falling again, I'm falling What if I'm down? What if I'm out? What if I'm someone you won't talk about? I'm falling again, I'm falling again, I'm falling You said you care And you missed me too And I'm well aware I write too many songs about you And the coffee's out At the Beachwood Cafe And it kills me 'cause I know We've run out of things we can say What am I now? What am I now? What if I'm someone I don't want around? I'm falling again, I'm falling again, I'm falling What if I'm down? What if I'm out? What if I'm someone you won't talk about? I'm falling again, I'm falling again, I'm falling And I get the feeling that you'll never need me again What am I now? What am I now? What if you're someone I just want around I'm falling again, I'm falling again, I'm falling What if I'm down? What if I'm out? What if I'm someone you won't talk about? I'm falling again, I'm falling again, I'm falling
8.
I will always be your friend I know it’s been a while since we’ve last spoken Can we do it over again? Can we do it over again? A few words said that we never meant A few too many down We lost count of the rounds At the end of the night You said “it’s alright” From the moment we parted ways And until this very day It just hasn’t sat right I’m afraid that reaching out Won’t get you back in my life I just want you to know that I will always be your friend I know it’s been a while since we’ve last spoken Can we do it over again? Can we do it over again? I will always be your friend I know it’s been a while since we’ve last spoken Can we do it over again? Can we do it over again? Yeah It’s been many years Full of joy and tears Celebrations and let downs And us just hangin’ round Without you It just hasn’t felt right I just wanna say hello And we can keep it light Either way just know that I will always be your friend I know it’s been a while since we’ve last spoken Can we do it over again? Can we do it over again? I will always be your friend I know it’s been a while since we’ve last spoken Can we do it over again? Can we do it over again? You know that I’d do just about anything for you For you
9.
What are the wishes you make When you blow out candles on your cake? I’ve heard you’re not supposed to say your wishes out loud What's that all about? So I’m keeping mine to myself Even though I still have my doubts Sometimes you have to live without What gets you by and you can only try Don’t be embarrassed This time next year you’ll be dead Or you'll be in Paris Past the bastille with a book in your hand What are the wishes you make When you’re in bed does your mind race? I’ve heard you’re not supposed to say That stuff aloud but it comes out Well I was keeping mine to myself I could maybe live to see it out I'll come visit and you can show me how You’re getting by, you make me wanna try Don’t be embarrassed This time next year you’ll be dead Or you'll be in Paris Past the bastille with a book in your hand Your professor was right Your past life They don’t understand Setting alight on the edge of a knife You’re a wicker man

about

With age comes wisdom, self-acceptance, and a newfound willingness to take emotional risks. Justice McLellan, the creative force behind Vancouver alternative-rock collective Blue J, has arrived at this exact place on his poignant and open-hearted sophomore album, Deep In The Fade.

Getting to this place wasn’t easy, but it has been incredibly rewarding. Following his 2021 debut, A Sign Of Good Luck, Deep In The Fade finds McLellan trading introversion for exploration, making peace with troubled relationships, reaching out to friends and loved ones in new, more confessional ways, and learning to embrace the “flawed” parts of himself. “The deeper into the fade, the weirder things get,” McLellan says of his latest work, which features guest spots from the Peach Pit guitarist Chris Vanderkooy (“Too Tired To Talk” and “Falling”) and Brandon Wolfe Scott of Yukon Blonde (“This Time Next Year”), and production from John Raham (Dan Mangan, Destroyer, Frazey Ford).

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released August 25, 2023

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Blue J Vancouver, British Columbia

Blue J may or may not be a reference to a baseball team, a melancholic person who's name begins with the letter J, the loquacious bird, a comic book character from The Justice League or simply a blue coloured J.

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